Make up work :)

Well I totally forgot to post for Bailey turning 13 months!! My head has been elsewhere.

Anyway My beautiful little girl turned 13 months on the 17th. Its amazing how much she has grown and changed. I sat back and looked at pictures from before John left and she was only 3 months old. It's amazing the difference. She is a walking machine!! She just decided to get up and walk a few weeks back and has been going speed ever since. Thats my little girl, never cease to amaze! She's very silly, giggly and all around happy girl. She is now very independent and gets upset when she can do something or when mommy takes something away.

She is very bright and learns something new everyday. She has become quite the little mockingbird. (now is a great time to watch what comes out of my mouth!) Reading time and bath time is her favorite.

Being a mom has been the biggest blessing in my life. This beautiful little girl that John and I created!! I still find it hard to believe we made her and she is ours. Words cannot even express the joys of having a child. You never know that feeling until you experience it yourself. Bailey is my life and I dont know what I would do with out her. Im so glad that I can take her to work with me and have her all day. I dont think I could have the heart to drop her off somewhere everyday. I'd be so lost with out her. We have a great routine and Bailey knows it. Structure is so important right now.

Ok so enough blabbing! On to the good stuff my beautiful girl ;)

...(the other love of my life)

Two years of heaven

When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'


I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby



Today is our 2 year anniversary! Not so fun with John not being here, But I still love him as much as the day i married him. John has been an amazing husband I hate that hes not here to spend it with me, but I know we have plenty of anniversaries ahead of us to celebrate. John has changed my life in so many ways. Never did I know I could love someone so much.

I love that we have known each other forever. We always joke and say it was love at first site. Ok at 12 I guess not, but years later when we reconnected it definitely was. We have been through so much together in our few short years.Just months after we started dating John went to Boot camp and AT and we stayed together and stayed strong. Wrote letters everyday and got once a week calls. When he got back we just jumped right back into our relationship like we never were apart.













We didn't get quite the response we thought we would when we announced we were engaged. Oh the fun we had with that one. We stayed strong and had each others backs..( and believe me it wasn't easy) We both at one point or another said "lets just run away" I'm sure they all would of loved that. LOL But nothing can destroy love. We were meant to be and we knew it. Why wait!? I cant even count how many times we said that. We were in love and there was no reason not to yell it from the roof tops! We were married May 22nd 2008.



Also had the why wait policy when it came to having a baby ;p Got pregnant July of 2008 and Had a beautiful daughter April 17th 2009. John has been deployed for 10 long months now. I have my days when i want to cry and give up but John is always there to call and tell me its going to be ok. Even from far away hes still my rock. He may be overseas but hes still "got my back" I don't thank him as much as I should I know its hard on him as well, but he stays strong for me. He is truly amazing and I cant wait to have him back! Happy two years baby and many many more to come.

Cause I know I'll never find another Soulmate

Destressing... AKA word vomit

I was taught to " Be kind for everyone you meet may be fighting a harder battle" (Plato) or Never judge anyone till you've walked a mile in their shoes..... At what point can you say screw it? How long do you have to "be kind" to someone and receive nothing in return till you can give up? Now i know the point of being kind is not expect anything in return. I was taught that as well. I'm still nice to people who show me kindness. I'm not saying that I've had a hard life because I know people that have had harder but I have been through many trials. So saying they have a tough life or you dont understand what their going through is not a good excuse. What could make someone so bitter? What could make someone have hate towards another person? .....Jealously? ......Unhappy with thier own life? Those are really the only excuses I can think of and those really aren't good excuses. Is it bad I've reached the point that i just don't care anymore? Whether your unhappy or jealous.. I don't pity you or feel bad for you anymore. By being this way you are destroying your life.. YOUR life and only yours. You may think you are putting me down or making fun of me, but in reality you just look immature and dumb... Congrats your 14 again. There are people that are unhealthy not physically but mentally. Those people wear you down and stress you out. That makes you unhealthy. I don't need any extra stress in my life. Therefore you are not welcome in my life. Go stress someone else out.


Acceptance.....everyone wants to be accepted. Everyone wants to be liked, but at some point you have to say I AM ME! If you don't like me, thats ok..please don't pretend to. People have to get over the "teenage image" of being liked and having friends. Its not going to hurt my feelings if you don't like me. I always stressed about people liking me always have, and as I've crossed over into adulthood and motherhood I realized I really don't care if people like me. I have grown comfortable with myself I know who I am, I know what I want and most importantly I know where I'm going. Can you say that? It's so juvenile to hold grudges. As a teen i held sooooo many just little dumb things people did or people said. Even now I see people doing it even GROWN adults!! If I can get over that, I'm sure everyone else can. too The past is the past people make mistakes I dont have to like you (LOL) but i have forgiven and forgotten. Grow up people, I mean really...

A Salute To The Military Wife

A Salute to the Military Wife
This is for the sad military wives, the angry military wives, and the strong military wives.
This is for the young women that are waking up at 6 a.m. every morning, laying out clothes and packing three lunches for those small precious children that they have been left alone to care for.
This is for the pregnant military wife wondering if her husband will make it home in time to watch their *miracle* happen.
This is for the childless military wife, living in a town or on a base alone where she is a complete stranger to her surroundings.
This is for the women that feel like a third leg when they go out with their friends and their husbands.
This is for the military wife that canceled all her plans to wait by the phone, and even though the phone broke up and cut off every time you spoke to him you waited anyway.
This is a pledge to the women that cry themselves to sleep in an empty bed.
This is to recognize the woman that felt like she was dying inside when he said he had to go, but smiled for him anyway.
This is for those of you that are faithfully in that long line at the post office once a month, handling 2 large boxes and 2 small children like a pro.
This is for that woman that decided to remodel the house to pass time, and then realized that she had no idea what she was doing and sighed and wished she had a little help.
This is for all the lonely nights, all the one-person dinners, and all of the wondering thoughts because you haven’t heard from him in days.
A toast to you for falling apart, and putting yourselves back together. Because a pay check isn’t enough, a body pillow in your bed is no consolation, and a web cam can never compare.
This is for all of you no matter how easy or hard this was for you. Our marines/soldiers/airmen/sailors/coasties are brave, they are heroes, but so are we.
So the next time someone tells you that they would never marry a military guy, don’t bother explaining to them that you can’t control who you fall in love with. Just think of this and nod your head, know that you are the stronger woman.
Hold your heads up high, hang that flag in your front yard, stick 100 magnets on your car, and then give yourself a pat on the back.
If you are a military spouse or know a military spouse,
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SACRIFICE’S

I'm the Mom thats why :)

Well Happy 2nd Mothers Day to me!! The day started out a bit rough, I gotta say I was down and depressed. I pulled myself out of my funk and managed to put a smile on my face. Being a mom has been the best thing that ever happened to me..(besides marrying the Love of my life) Its amazing how one little life can changed everything about yours. Bailey is my life, shes my everything I don't know what i would do without her. I wake up every morning for her, I truck on through my days for her and I go bed every night for her. She keeps me busy keeps me running and even keeps me from sleeping lol But I love every second of it!

Being a "single" mom has being a huge obstacle, but oh wow the major respect I have gain for those who have or are currently raising children on their own. Its NOT an easy job. Mad props to the Mommas!! I get mad, I get tired and I get aggravated. But the sweet smiles and the cuddles make it worth it. The new talents, the discoveries and the new amusing things she learns keeps me laughing and excited for her and what the future holds.

I have great family and friends who have been here to support me and Bailey. They have been a huge help with my work schedule and when I just need a little me time!! I have a hard time letting go or admitting I just cant do it on my own. Rarely do i admit that I need help. I feel that I should be able to do it all. I sit here and cry and wonder why God dealt me this if I'm not able to handle it. Then I realized he blessed me with the amazing people in my life to help me through it all. A special Thanks to ALL of them, With out you all I would be a mess :p ....ok a bigger mess

Miss Independent

Bailey decided to feed herself this morning, I gotta say she did a great job. A little yogurt here an little yogurt there. But not as bad has I imagined it would be. My little girl is growing up right before my eyes. Its so hard to believe sometimes. Just the little things seem to be huge at times.

First Haircut!

Bailey got her first haircut on Friday! I really wanted to wait till John got home but the poor thing was loosing vison. Lol She did great! (The snacks helped with that) A couple snips gave her a new look! She looks way to old now.

Before the cut!

During!

Bangs! :)