Belly Cast!

I got a belly cast done on Sunday! It was really cool.. for those of you who dont know what that is.. its a fiberglass sculpture of your prego belly and they decorate or paint it. I've never even heard it before now. It was a awesome experience, a bit awkward at first i was sitting completely topless in front of a total stranger( but ive come to realize there is no modesty in being pregnant lol) as she cast my chest and tummy. I'm so excited to see how it turns out. I found my design online and that shes going to paint it like. Thats not a picture of mine but thats exactly what it will look like! (but ofcourse say Bailey Mackenzie) How cool is that!? I'm going to hang it up in the nursery! It will be really neat to show her and be like that was you in my tummy!

Being a parent is all about...

It's funny how much having a child can change your life.. Even the small things arent so small anymore. You suddenly become overprotective of something thats not even here yet. Things you never would of noticed before stand out to you. Things people say and little things they do make you think that much harder. You can look at someone and be like Oh My i dont want child knowing someone like that, being like that or even hearing that. Suddenly the little things John or I do and say i stop and think about it. I looked at John the other day after he said something that would never bother me before and said excuse me Daddys dont talk like that! lol Would you want your little girl to hear that? haha Poor guy.. I've started looking at people in my life wondering if i want them around my child.. (Is that wrong?) Even family and friends you stop and think about who they are and if they can maintain a healthy relationship with your child. I know growing up after the death of my Father I lost contact with alot of my family. At the time everyone was grieving in their own ways and it just happened.. but being a child i didnt understand I thought they didnt love us anymore and wondered what I did wrong to make them go away too.. I never want that for my little girl! (Totally different situation) But i believe every child needs healthy stable people in their lives. You cant be friends and family when its convenient for you. Kids just dont understand. It's very hurtful to have people who are constantly "Hot Or Cold" in your life. You shouldn't have to wonder what their going to be like that day. It's amazing when your pregnant the people that come out of the wood works, people you haven't talked to in years or people that burned you long ago suddenly want to be happy go lucky and have a relationship with you and your soon to be child. You want to look at them like REALLY!? After all of that now every things ok. I know I shouldnt be like that and I have no grudges towards anyone but i dont want to put my guard down and be hurt again and most of all i dont want them to hurt my child. Thats what scares me the most. Suddenly its hard to have those people in your life..... and not knowing the decision to make about them. I guess thats what being a parent is all about............

Unexpected.......

John and i recently got news that completely changes our plans... Very uneventful. It seems these big things happen at the most inconvenient times. It doesnt help that i havent been sleeping so great, now i cant sleep at all. As i said in a previous post.. i can really handle only so much right now.. and this is way too much. So now we have a huge decision to make and i honesty dont know what to do. I've been up at 4 O'clock in the morning lately just thinking.. Its so hard to be prepared for something like this. I've gone to many of my amazing friends and cried in their living rooms trying to get different views and atleast a bit of advice from people i trust. We have a huge choice to make and at this point i dont know what it is. Life can suddenly throw you curves, but i know our love can get us through anything. John has held me all night long the past few nights knowing how worried i am. I know that we'll figure everything out in due time and it will work out for the best. Everything happens for a reason..

Soulmate
I hope that we grow old together
Soulmate
In the good and bad
Even through the heartache
We've got a special bond
That'll never break
'Cause darling you and I are
Soulmates

Belly shots!

I've been wanting to do some classic belly pics. I love those pictures you see everywhere. So i finally got time to do it. John and I have had crazy busy schedules. I had some time off on friday so we took a few theres still more i wanna do. Here's what we did so far :)

4 weeks left!?

I looked at the calendar today! I'm 36 weeks tomorrow. How crazy is that!? Time has just flown by. I've been having fun with the braxton hicks lately.. lol not fun at all! Just a little taste of labor, kinda scary. John and I have started packing our hospital bag (you never know) I told him last night i was scared, he just laughed at me and said baby you'll be fine. He's my rock. He's going to be such a huge help during labor. I know he'll push me through the pain. We are trying to go all natural. It really is best for the baby. ...(trying is the keyword there) Janna has been making fun of my nesting. I washed all the baby clothes the other day. Sorted it by size and put it away. Sitting on the bed with all the little pink clothes around me got me really excited. Shes coming! I'm ready now, but Janna told me i have to wait till the new girl starts at work lol I have to keep my legs crossed till the 18th she said. My goal is to work until i really just cant do it anymore, get as much time in as possible. Everyday gets a bit more tiring, but im still teaching my Hip-hop and Ballet classes :) The kids love it. I have a 5 yr old girl in my afterschool program, shes my doll baby such a sweetheart. She tells me everyday Miss Jenn the babys coming soon! Your bellys getting bigger!! lol Gotta love it.