Slowly but surely..

We are slowly but surely coming to the end of this deployment. It seems as it gets closer it gets harder. I miss him more and more everyday. I cant wait to have my other half back! The calendar and clock havent been on my side the past few weeks. I'm pretty sure time has slowed down and the days are longer. I sware!! lol

I just want him home safe in my arms. I know he cant wait to be here with his family. Its unbelievable how much Bailey has grown since hes seen her. Its been 7 months ...7 MONTHS!!!! I can't hardly believe its almost been a year since he first left. Then he was home at Christmas time and gone again. I want to hold him and never left go. He's slowly been sending odd stuff home just things he doesnt need or got while he was there. He sent a box home the other day with a shirt he got me and a sweatshirt he got for himself. As soon as I opened the box I almost cried immediately I could smell him! (You know how everyone has a scent) Well it was his, I picked up the clothes and put them to my face and just held them there. It felt like home!! or smelled like home. lol It was as if I was laying on his chest just breathing him in. Needless to say I've been sleeping with those random articles of clothing on my pillow for the past 2 weeks. Amazing enough it still smells like him. Hopefully it will hold me over till I get the real thing. (ofcourse is sooooo much better)

I have to say through all this hardship Ive learned and grown so much and John has as well. Never did I think I could raise my daughter on my own for a year. Never did I think I would have to. Its so much work and I cant wait to tag team. He is more than welcome to take over diaper duty!! lol Its amazing the many things you can overcome that you didnt think you could. The inner strength comes out that you didnt know you had. Love can conquer anything! John knew he had to be strong for me and I had to be strong for Bailey. I'm ready to just let go and let the tears fall!!!!! I want my Man back.